and just like that, the weekend is gone 😦
it’s june. 6 months just passed. we are halfway into 2012 already. seems like i just started this blog, man. how are your new year’s resolutions holding up? i vowed to say ‘NO’ more often and do a better job of sticking up for myself. that’s not going so well. you? don’t want to talk about it? ok, i’ll change the subject.
this is a pic i took at schlitterbahn water park back in 2008.
if only i had kept going. going where?
well, after much, much prayer and an extremely insane amount of late night talks with Sonny, i have decided to pursue a lifetime goal of mine. if not now, when? i know i will be put to the ultimate test. matter fact, i had one just yesterday. for the first time (literally, ever) i visited the bulk bins in both Whole Foods and HEB and did not snack. i mean i put absolutely nothing in my mouth on both trips. i also went to a birthday party for my neighbor’s son and the menu consisted of good ol party food of course- french fries, wings, chicken spaghetti, chili dogs, candy, cake and ice cream. fabulous party. (happy birthday, LJ!!) however, i didn’t eat any. nothing. i watched Chiso chow down on those french fries and i didn’t lose it. this is how i know in my heart how serious i am about pursing this goal. yesterday proved that. what the heck am i talking about already!?!?
21 % body fat
my ultimate goal is to compete in my first Ms. Bikini Musclemania show by THIS september 15th, (our FIFTH wedding anniversary, WOO HOOO!!!!!!!!!) 2012. only God knows why i waited so long to do this, but i am moving with the quickness and not looking back. i met with my trainer and have received my meal plan and workout schedule as of this weekend. i had second thoughts about blogging about it, but it is now apart of my life- no way i could leave this out. also, i know it will only hold me even more accountable which is what i need right now. cause ummmmmmmmmmm…sugar withdrawls are kicking in and i can’t tell you how discouraged i feel already. i snapped at Sonny all day. it’s one thing to not realize you’re doing something and have it (lovingly, hopefully) brought it to your attention, but i hear myself snapping and acting crabby and it’s like i can’t control it! everything irritates me, no matter what. sugar addition is REAL. very much so. yesterday was a true challenge, but it set me off on the right foot. i CAN handle the pressures of sugar and eventually it won’t overpower me like it used to.
putting all those empty cool whip containers to use, smh! meal prep action. preparation is definitely key in this arena. boy i was a sugar SLAVE!!! i justified the cool whip by telling myself ‘hey, at least it’s not ice cream.’ unfortunately there are way more tubs 😦
my mentor has advised me to blog about this experience as i will need an outlet to get me through these next few months. so… will my blog’s focus shift just a little bit? yeah, just a little! i started this thing to help and show people how to LIVE, eat, and be healthier- that won’t change. with God’s grace i’ll still be cooking up healthy meals for my guys, working, and being the best wife, mother, and healthy example i can possibly be. expect the normal posts to keep right on coming, but i’ll also keep you updated on my progress as my body changes and i prepare for this new venture. well, it’s out there now…no turning back.
i know you have goals and dreams… please share them.